and off goes my ramblings~
nee nee~ i am soooooo damn happy~ cause i got the Taylor's College Principal Awards of RM15,000 fee waiver~~~ x3~ i shall be studying at Taylor's Sri Hartamas Campus by January, right after my SPM ends... homg... i've only got around 2 to 3 weeks of break and straight to studying again~ oh well... at least now i can concentrate solely on studies without worrying and applying for different colleges, pre-u and stuff.... i'll just need to study more for SPM, get a good result, and pray hard i can 'upgrade' the scholarship by RM3,000 $_$
ugh... now that i think of it... i'm older than my Yamamoto Takeshi... uguuu...
(*got distracted by a siren* well what the heck... i didn't know the Health Department people can blare their siren like that =.=' i thought there was a murder or a fire near my house... =.= they are just going to do fogging =.=~~)
anyways... i'm now having a hard time...
i can't decide which subject i shall take... (cause Taylor's only give me about 2 weeks to think hard and make a decision... i guess) i like maths.... but i am scared if i go for it, i'll be facing numbers 1 to 9 for my life... sciences... hmmm... i only like physics... but my dad wants me to go for Medicine... :( but i am weak at Bio... D: doushiyou????
so if i were to take 3 sciences and 2 maths.... it'll be a burden... and i might not maintain a good result and get thrown off the deal... D: and and... what if i made my choice and find out later that i'm just not fit for it??? D: i'm doomed either way... help... save me save me...
and the scholarship offer came with conditions... number 4 almost made my eyes fall off my head...
4. Recipient is not permitted to change the programme of studies and must maintain an excellent attendance record of not less than ninety per centum (90%) and an academic average of at least seventy per centum (70%) throughout the study duration at Taylor’s College. The College
reserves the right to review the award, if the student fails to maintain either attendance record or academic performance.
OTL i'm doomed... i'm scared... everything is new there... and i must get my results to at least above 70%?! OTL )) OTL )) OTL *crawls around*
ugh... and i envy everyone... everyone is like... everyone already know what they will be taking after SPM... some are going for Medicine, Accountings, Engineering, Political Sciences.... etc... ugh... me? none! i've got no ambition... which is why i'm having an extreme hard time deciding now... seriously... i'm a failure... i'm worthless OTL )) OTL )) OTL *crawls around*
please please... someone, help me... help me make the right decision... ~_~